On June 19, just 15 days before the accident that changed our lives, which you can read about on our Grief page, God confirmed that it was time for me to do something that I had been talking about for a long time: write a book. And then I was given what I believe were very specific instructions on what not to do (He knows me so well!):
1. Research to see if it had been done before
2. Ask anyone's opinion
3. Give up before starting
4. Let somebody else's dream take precedence
And then I immediately received what I called the C's. I think it is odd and sometimes corny when speakers/pastors speak from outlines where all the topics start with the same letter. Well, that's what I got.
I heard the Call loud and clear. Then came the Confirmation through several people. I assumed Courage was what it would take to act on the call, but I had no idea just how much courage it would take after the accident. (When Kelly and Travis chose "Courageous" by Casing Crowns as one of the songs for the funeral, I just sobbed.) And, of course, Completion made perfect sense.
I felt strongly that there were five C's, so I just left number five blank. It seemed weird, but so did the whole "C" thing. And then in September, three months later, I believe God gave me the last one: Confidence.
At the time, I thought that Confidence should have come before Completion, but I get it now. Writing Little Cabin on the Trail has required me to plead with God for every single page--I could not rely on myself one bit. And that is why I have not been able to talk much about my book before now. I wanted to believe that the words would come, but I had to wait until they did. I knew that I could never accomplish this task--and I did not want to accomplish this task--if the Lord was not directing my pen.
Many times along the way, I felt kind of silly when people asked me what my plans were for my book. Mostly, I just answered, "I don't know." I still do not know. I am taking one step at a time--waiting on God's direction. I know that I am in the Confidence stage, which is very hard for me. In my heart I believe in the message of Little Cabin on the Trail, but putting my writing and my family's stories out there is a little scary!
So, if you read the back cover and think you might enjoy it, then go ahead over to Amazon and order a copy or two or three. And then let me know what you think. xoxoxo